“It’s Ok”

This is a poem I wrote when I finally found a little bit of peace about my mothers' passing. It took me about 2 years to find that peace, so this piece was a long time in coming.

Unable to let go
to you
I have said 1,000 good-byes
I’ve wallowed in my pain
cursed the heavens
and asked why for the last time
hurt and anger subsides
and my heart gives way to a peace
unknown and unexpected
fears of this world melted away
the day He took your hand
out by the sun
your worries fade into sunrise
into glory
and a love secured
before your eyes ever saw the light of day
love and lessons taught live on
laughs and smiles shared shine brightly
guiding my steps towards my own destiny
you allowed me to dream
even though you knew not how
you allowed me to speak
even though you grew up
seen and not heard
to me everything was given
all the while
everything was gradually taken from your hands
when I remember you pains
ills and fears
I remind my heart
all that you survived
pales by comparison to your streets of gold
your promised mansion
and a soul no longer tortured
by a world that was never your own
so you see
it’s ok that you’re gone
memories of you brings smiles
laughs
and gratitude to The Almighty
He allowed me to live through you
and now allows you to live through me
God is good
although these words come with tears
they are temporary
for I will see you again
out by the sun
He will take my hand
and yours will be the first face I see
so you see
my beloved one
it’s ok…

© Antoinette Davis
    November 17, 2008