“In My Quiet Moments”

Lies give way to truth
hiding is not allowed
nor possible
thoughts of lost love
are just beneath the surface
memories are vivid
in my face
in my heart
and sometimes in my way
there is no forgetting or denial
love comes alive
and is somehow a little brighter
but still just out of my reach
although not for long
I speak “the one” into existence
I await his arrival
like a child awaits the ice cream man
my vision clouds with hope
and ever-present demons
they wage daily war
and I’m never sure of the true victor
love
hate
regret
anger
each hold their place
and their own piece of me
in my quiet moments
before my God
my flaws are confessed
forgiven
but never too far from my mind
or forgotten
in my quiet moments
I recognize my own beauty
but wonder if it’s my own illusion
unseen by all
in my quiet moments
reflections of mortality trouble my heart
heaven is my destination
but costs more
than I may be capable of giving
in my quiet moments
I walk in my blessings
with grace and gratitude
secret promises are made
and dreams live to see another day
quiet moments bring clarity
reveal true thoughts
feelings
short comings
and dreams
in my mind
I’m revealed anew with each quiet moment
I see a work in progress
and it’s ok to just be me
no matter what that may be

© Antoinette Davis
    July 8, 2008